I know myself more...

重整第六天---6th day of rallying

I finish my cycling journey at 7.30am morning...
reach back my room at abt 9am++, took a bath then.... sleep
4pm, I woke up..
the tiredness is reduced.. but i was not really semangat also..lol
I recall the time during night cycling.. it was fun.
I recall the time before night cycling (during planning and preparing), i feel uneasy..
This was because i didn commit enough to this event. I was the committee under publicity. I suppose to write an email to inform every member abt this event and create a facebook event to promote this night cycling..
I hv done the email thing during CNY.. thats fine
But for facebook, i duno y i cant start it.. because i nvr do it before?? Duno how to write in words that is "attractive"?? spreadsheet hvn reach that time??
I duno.. I just cant start it... afraid afraid afraid, worry worry worry, I duno what i afraid and worry for... stupid..
Finally, i hv created an 'empty' facebook event.. As in everybody know got night cycling but there is empty inside coz i hvn add anything.. No photos uploaded also.. I decided to complete it in that weekend coz that time i was quite busy with other things.. yeah midterm was around the corner that time.. I was doing my EG1413 assignment as well.. But before the day I can do it.. The project director has alry done another one.. Full with information, photos uploaded and i was invited.. Suddenly just feel that i am very slow and unefficient. Why he can do this asap and i cant?? What ppl care abt now is efficient..
Among all the task i need to complete, i only able to complete one.. i didnt think abt other ppl that time.. so selfish..
During post event meeting, I hv ranked myself 4 out of 10 for commitment in this event..
Now i know myself.. I never do things with a heart.. not only for this event.. in my studies also.. I keep on giving myself excuse..

I finish typing my last report until 3am..
while starting to prepare stuff to be completed on the next day, I promise myself.. I must show a full commitment in everything in mylife..

Thanks for night cycling event, I know myself more...