有点不一样

第四个学期了
信心指数没有增长的迹象

忙。
这个字眼常常在我生活里
忙什么？
不是很大不了的事。但，它基本。

压力。
每个人都有。
有的被压一下，长处全跑出来示威。
有的被压一下，长处投降了。。

苦。
吃得起它，方为人上人。
有时知道苦了，有终于体会到生活的感觉。
有时候想找个人说说话，诉诉苦，解解闷。
抬起头，四方皆墙。
拿起手机，因为知道每个人都忙，
联系单往下按了又按，最后还是按了“退出”

以前每次都有跟妈妈说我的感受，我的苦。
现在，拿起电话，我讲不讲都没分别了。
因为妈感受到，
而我也感受到她对我的安慰。
沉默间，我知道这是我该经历的。
我必须要撑住。

妈给我的“五再”很有用。
再苦，你要忍耐坚持
再累，你要默默承受
再忙，你要照顾自己
再难，你要接受磨炼
再烦，你要保持微笑

往者不可谏，来者犹可追，
天将降大任于是人也， 必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，空乏其身，行拂乱其所为，
不经一番寒彻骨，焉得梅花扑鼻香？

这一刻，该长一智了。

My Little Bottle

I didnt think of continue to blog actually, as I think everyone knows that once I am here, the probability that I will leave something happy here is S-M-A-L-L.

Non stop "working"....><
"working"??
---"mugging"
---"catching up lag behind studies"
---"practice"
---"committee work"

And I am well-understood: what is so-called "demoralised"
Never been feeling this so deep that sometimes I even thought everything that I own before are all
F-A-K-E.

May be I have thought too much,
may be it is just that moment..
and I need some time.
And... yes. Is the environment.
It has proven to me that："This is the standard, you can achieve means you can. If you cant do it well means there other people stronger than you. AND　YOU MUST WORK HARD."

I did work hard. I did! I really did!!But just not enough..

Believe me or not, I already accept that fact is "I am just a very very normal uni girl". What I own now(everything) is neither the best nor the worst.
Are you satisfied if you are me?

Life,
is just like an empty bottle.
you can fill it with sands, water, papers.... up to you.
For me, I gonna fill in something that will always adjust the pressure to be smaller than pressure outside.
To make sure that the bottle cap or the stopper will not be opened easily.
So that the bottle is always safe.. even if it is being thrown out to the sea..